I'd like to say I'm sorry,
just to write and appologise.
I wanted to see your world,
to see it from your own eyes.
I know I tried much too hard,
and that was my mistake.
Me thinking I'm not good enough,
lead you my heart to break.
I also wasn't honest,
my past a mixture of lies.
I wanted you to be the first,
to help free me from my ties.
My heart told me to let you in,
but I needed some more time.
I couldn't say exactly when my dear,
I knew not far down the line.
I never did mean to hurt you,
didn't try to underestimate,
But you think I really did,
which leaves myself to hate.
Of all the people in this world,
the last I wanted to hurt was you.
I say this with a heavy heart now,
because my love was true.
You think I didn't love you,
because of what I've done.
I'll let you into a secret dear,
in my mind only you, the One.
I didn't care except for you,
least not about myself.
It was always only you my love,
and your current state of health.
Will you read this at any time,
if you do, will you care?
These are my thoughts and feelings,
my soul for you laid bare.
This the truth will you believe?
A simple answer, no!
In my heart there's always you,
the part I couldn't throw.
Humm I'm writing poetry with a definite rhythm and rhyming scheme again.
It must reflect my state of mind at the time I suppose.
(c) 25 October 1998 19:24, Fnagaton.